Letter IV

My lover and friend,

My heart rejoiced when our lips met for the very first time, the rapid beating caused me to lose my breath. My legs trembled and I felt a deeper need for you than I have ever felt before. Did you feel it? Did you feel it when our lips touched?
I replay the moment in my mind constantly, remembering each detail and each whisper. The way your breath felt against my skin and how your arms felt when we embraced. I know I will never forget that night since it still to this day fills me with such wonder.
I impatiently await to see you once more, in person. To touch your skin with my own. The very thought sends goosebumps down my neck and shivers down my spine.
The effect you have on not only my body, but my mind scares me. Scares me that I am feeling this too quickly and you are not. Scares me because I have not felt so connected to another creature as I do with you. Scares me because I do not want to ruin our friendship with my foolishness.
I have used the term, "love," in my previous letters, but I am unsure if that is what I feel. Yes, I feel for you deeply and passionately. But, I am afraid to allow myself to fully love you for fear of how you might react. I hold a love for you, but I am not in love with you... yet. I am also afraid that I will fall in love with you. Is that silly?
I am driving myself insane with this constant fantasies and thoughts of you. Do you not know how often you invade my thoughts? My dreams? I wonder at times whether I enter yours.

Written with the hand of her that was, is, and shall be yours by her will.
Your most loyal servant and friend.