i sit here wondering when this pain will end.

i winder when i will know what to expect.

i sit here broken hearted wondering if i will ever get the chance to live.

is he ever going to be the one that says thos three special three words to me?

am io ever going to be able to hold him in my arms and tell him that hes mine?

will he ever be in my arms as mine? 

will he ever be the one that protects me no matter against who?

or does he already do that?

i think only god knows the way of the world.

will i ever be good enough?

i dont know what else to do for him..ive cried my pretty blue eyes out...ive even told him what he means to me and why...but im not sure thats enough...

all i know is that i loved you then...i love you know...and i always will...

i love you. forver. no matter what.