Inside My Mind

The weight of my life is so hard to bear
I don't know if I can handle another day watching people stop an stair
me I'm not like anybody I know
I'm the black spot in the all white snow

First off I'm a virgin waiting on my wife
Why does that matter to anyone but me it's my life

Next thing is i don't drink or smoke
And that's where i get ridiculed the most
Another thing is I'm Christian to
And I'm a Christian Through an Through
All of what i said here was true
I just can't believe I'm telling you what i go through

I keep to myself so sometimes i need a release 
It don't make life better but at least i get a little peace
An after i write I'm more at ease 
With out poetry and skateboarding i don't know where i would be
but I'm sure thats not a place i wanna be

The last thing i deal with is loneliness i been single for two and a half years
Time go's on but i don't forget all the tears 
All the fake words that have entered my ear's
All the lost love an all the fears
All the fake girls over all my years 

Life sucks then we die
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
That i can't have a good day just a hard life
But i think it will get better if i found love an a wife

But until then I'll keep fighting this battle within 
I hope I'm at peace an happy when my life is at it's end
But after my life in this flesh is at it's end
none of this crap will even matter because I'll just be dust in the wind