Thank you

I want to thank you for being what you were
for being there when I needed you
thank you for teaching me about love
even when you didn't know
thank you for putting a song in my heart
and putting pain there too
for helping me create so much beauty
thank you for being my friend
for being my lover for so long
thank you for showing me strength
for protection and warmth

I wish I had been more when you needed me
I wish I could understand
I wish I had shown you more of me
I wish you could understand
I wish I had held your hand more
shown you more emotion
I wish I had not said so much
and listened more
I wish we had thought about things more

and now it's over
I wish you peace and love
I wish you happiness
I wish you forgiveness of yourself
and everyone who has hurt you
I hope you find your path
I hope you find yourself along the way
I hope you remember me
and all we shared
I hope you think of me as your friend
I wish you the ability to open your heart
to truly love yourself and everyone around you

It's sad but it is time to start living again
It's time to let myself open up
and love
and be loved
and feel the breeze on my face
enjoy my dog's smile
feel the love I have for my children
cuddle my cat
listen to my friends
I had hoped you would be coming with me
through this together
but sometimes
you must travel alone

maybe I'll see you on the other side