shotguns and firefights

The waters run, the sun still shines
But I find no joy in being alive
No newborn child or loving smile
Can make this life feel worthwhile
Dreary eyes and broken hearts
Leave a taste so old and tart
Take from me this loneliness
I can no longer be a part of this

Shotgun shells and wilted petals
Vodka and cyanide, never fails
A razor blade so new and sharp
I slice myself and hit restart

No use going on in this wasted life
Don't tell me to smile, I tried
It always comes out a little bit snide
Tired of watching the smiles
Tired of living the lies
Tired of praying for a tomorrow
When I can't even remember why

A rope and a noose, beauty encased
This life I live is a life disgraced
Gun to the head and squeeze on the trigger
A solution that will end this forever
Knives run red, my heart is dead
No reason to keep going on
What I loved is dead and gone

A moving car, my head beneath the tire
A burning house and I run into the fire
Deepest pool, so far in the abyss
I'm tired of swimming in this distress
It's my life to do with it what I please
So goodbye world, and just forget about me

I close my eyes to one last sleep
And have no need to count the sheep
As the pills are sinking in
And dissolving what sleeps within
Tomorrow, I will never wake
And I know it's love I might forsake
But my heart is cold and I don't care
I'm not searching for something that was never there
I had it once, I lost it all
And now this is my turn to fall
Goodbye Earth, I hear Death's call