'You'

It's been so long
since there was a 'you'
hard to live with nothing to lose
distract myself from the lonely room
with football games and chores to do
it's been so long since there was a 'you'

I would give so much to feel the closeness
bought with heartache and heavy chest
the closeness that i used to resent
the jealousy of youth as rent

but still i make no effort to
exact the pleasure most pursue
from others i still shy away
though not as ugly as my shame

perhaps to write a poem would
do for me what lovers could
in the way of strong emotion
on second thought a silly notion

but here we are and there it goes
the time still passes wounds and woes
my friends will ask about my life
i let them down unless i lie

It's been so long since there was a 'you'
hard to bleed without a bruise
disturbing how the lonely choose
not to look for subtle clues
it's been so long since there was a 'you'