Belly Down

Belly down I swing
blue skies and breezes fly by
I smile, close my eyes
I feel free for once
in this world
I walk around feeling upside down in
you look embarrassed but smile
so obvious in your world
32 is too old for such things
and my body, covered with
the wear of children
and the tear of my past,
isn't designed to be so free
I wonder how you can say love
when you just don't get it
me, life, who and what people are,
yourself
what is it about me
that makes you want more?
I'm so not you
you're so far from me
what draws you in?
me or the wanting of things I cannot be
to come in this package
filling your nights with lust
right here and now
it's so sad you never truly see
what resides in my eyes
so very clearly
do you ever sense
the part of my soul
someone else stole
he, so much like you,
never had time to see
never cared to see
all of the prisms inside me
can you identify
or is this just life to you
me is me and you is you
never stray beyond
never dare to know
just grab any old piece
to solve this puzzle
if I showed you all of me
would you love the tattered remnants
of a girl afraid to believe
the girl who still dreams
of white knights, white picket fences
eternal, undying love
could you still hold me
on long nights when demons haunt
listen to them in my voice
and still love me
want me
with all the desire you feel right now
and then would you still want more?