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it's been nine years of heartache
nine years of heartbreak and i don't know what to do
i look up and the sky cracks in two and who knew
i've fallen and bled
i've reckoned i's dead
but who wouldn't love a bullet in their head
in times like these
hollowed eyes
hollowed out soul
hollow hearts
doth the moon glow
who knew
that nine years ago
i was lost and lonely was i
kept isolated
and chilled on ice
dazed and amused
i started to choose
all of those things i was told not to do
and i wanted to love and be loved in return
i wanted so bad for my bridges to burn
independence was my dream
but all i could do was scream
in the face of those who claimed power
because people are stupid
because people are liers
the soul is dead
lost bullet in their head
who would have thought that this stupid girl
could ever change the pace of her own little world
it's been nine years ago
beyond oceans and seas
stuck in her head where these lost melodies
a song for the silent and for the unheard
a song for the heartaches of the lost and absurd
and all the nobody people
and all the queer people
and all the strange people
and all the hurt people
because that's all i got
who knew i would become nothing
now my brain hurts alot.....