I'm the Fetus; Abortion Please?

Heartwrenched hello's and
Broken good-byes
Keep me teathered to the feather that carries your
Hopes, dreams, and aspirations.
And as I float to the ground with that feather,
I realize that.
I may never be good enough to fit your
Cookie-cutter description of what you want and need,
But the pain from being let down yet again
Could be enough to make me put this razor back into
My skin,
Enough to make me take...
My Own Life.
All I,
Ever wanted was for
You to notice
Me.
Desire makes me insane,
But sanity makes me cut myself,
Damned if you do, damned if you don't.
So I'll follow,
Ever so patiently,
Just to be let down
Depressed again.
Now when we cross paths,
Each and everyday
Don't smile at me
And don't tell me the new things in your life.
I don't care to know,
Don't give another shit to even
Begin to care.
Close my eyes, Wake me up,
Pull me down just
Enough,
To let me bob back up to the top,
Enough to believe
Then drag me down
Dunk my head underwater
Bubble, bubble, bubble....
Washed up and
Drowned.