2008-03-12 Journal Entry

Sometimes I miss my dad, everyone tells me to move on but I can't. Is this one of thoese things that I really want something I know I can't or ever will have? I am so tired of asking myself if he will come back for me, because I know the answer. I am currently reading Freedom Writters, and it is taking me forever because I relate so much to some of there stories, that I know I need to continue stop reading or I will cry, and thats the worst thing I can do right now. I really hate knowing we have to move again, when I came here I told myself I wouldn't make friends for that reason alone. But like always I find people wanting my friendship. It's bad enough my friends are already an hour away so whats next? I want my younger sister back, at least with her I wouldn't feel so alone all the time. I use to tell myself I didn't want sisters, and now that there gone I realize, I need them back, I really do. Well for good news, I have been going out on weekends, getting away, drinking, just hanging out havig fun with my life. I had a god day bt for some reason really just needed to write, which hasn't really happened in a while, I mean I have written just because but tonight I needed to. Goodnight world=]