Which One

tortured by my own thoughts i ponder
i know you miss her still i wonder
which her is it that you miss so much?
do you want a lighter or a darker touch?
doesnt matter how hard I try to please
when she is the only one that can put your restless mind to ease
trapped in the horrors of my own sanity
i will not conform to your wanted reality
not knowing the consequenses that you cause
barely giving me time to pause
so which one is it going to be
will you go back to her or return home to me