DARKNESS OF PAIN

sitting all alone
in the darkness
of dispair
hateing the people
who are never there
wishing for one
second that they cared
but knowing for
eternity they never will
.....and the pain......
thats like athousand
knives cutting you at once
.....i cry.......
tears of crimson blood
streaming down my face
wishing for one second
that i had the
curage to take this
knife and take my life
then maybe id
be happy
......or.......
will i forever
be punished to dwell
in the darkness of pain?
the one thing i wish to erase
will i forever be
in misery
......or......
will i beable to
fly free
free of this pain
free of these memories
that haunt me so