I wish you wouldn't spend your days analyzing all that I do
I wish you could see things from my side
I wish you wouldn't let me push you away only to beg for me back the next day
I wish you wouldn't shortly thereafter tell me I am still unforgivable
I wish i could say I am not gonna let that happen again

I cant turn back time
I cant undue all that was done
I cant make you understand why
I cant be the girl you thought I should be

I want to you to know it broke my heart every time you cried
I want you to know not a day goes by I dont feel the guilt
I want to make you remember that the same reasons you fell in love with me are what keeps you from me today
I want to take all your pain away

I hate the way it has to end
I hate your fucked up attitude
I hate that I stood by you through your rough times and you abandoned me in mine
I hate the way you fucking judge me
I hate the sick way I feel when I see your face

I love that I'm the only one who can make you cry
I love that you are cold and emotionless and no one but me will ever get a rise out of you like I could
I love that you have no idea how sick you are
I love that one day you will meet someone new and she will tell you for me
And for some fucked up reason I still love you
But I hate you for compelling me to write this garbage