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A Letter to Myself
By murderedhearts_blood
have you ever felt in danger?
vulnerable to the world?
it's a horrible place to be in.
it's almost like your confined...
imprisoned with the clincher.
it's pure torture and insanity.
when your someone fucks you over,
you just feel so disconnected.
you fear that you may never
be able to live happy again.
you feel like a failure,
like someone's fucking bitch and doormat.
so defeated and weak that you panic.
you feel a tear roll down your cheek,
and you are so desperate
that you try to kill yourself.
i know you've felt this way before.
i hope that one day you will stop torturing yourself.
it's not just other people.
you fuck yourself over too.
Try taking a different look at things...
it could change your life forever.
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© 2005 murderedhearts_bloodofevil
Published on Thursday, October 20, 2005.
Filed under: "Personal" and
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On Thursday, October 20, 2005, suicidalsecrecy
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wrote:
wow i feel the same way sometimes
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On Wednesday, August 5, 2020, murderedhearts_blood
(24) wrote:
Yes, it sure does suck do you feel that way… I literally can’t stop feeling this way, and I can’t even remember the last time that I was actually happy. Well, that’s not really true… I was happy when I got my first cat named Kitty (because he was the best cat and/or best being who had the EVER lived & who had the best soul, and he died in my arms in my arms on Christmas Eve morning... he was my best friend and my family... I lost a piece of my soul that day and beyond, forever…), when I got my second cat, the day that I died in 2009, and, of course, when my daughter was born in 2011. But I can’t stop feeling this way… I think of suicide constantly and I always thought that I was going to kill myself after Kitty died, but my other cat (Kletus) looked so devastated, and sad, and hopeless, which was something that I have never seen before in him, and I couldn’t break his heart all over again. It still affects him to this very day, and his personality has changed quite a bit since that happened. So, once he passes away, I’m going to do it then. Kitty was literally my soulmate and he was always the number one on the list of people who I love the most, or, in this case, the animal who loved the most.
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