My Darkness

Darkness consumes me,
And I welcome it with open arms.
At this point,
No one can cause me deeper harms.
The pain that I once felt,
No longer bothers me.
Though I still suffer,
I can no longer be.
I used to run away from it,
Now I no longer fear.
I turn to face it,
But its no longer here.
But the thought that frightens me,
Scares me the most.
Is the thought that I,
Am now only a ghost.
I cannot save him,
Nor could I save myself.
Back then I was belittled,
Made small just like an elf.
I cannot save him,
I feel so weak.
I cannot tell him,
For I can hardly speak.
I cannot tell him that,
I Love him so.
I just hope now,
That he should already know.
I just hope he does,
For if he doesn't I will break.
With all these things happening,
I don't know how much more I can take.
Slit my wrists,
For some relief.
Though I'm already gone,
Just let me believe.
Let me believe,
In this one little thing.
Let me believe,
In the relief that it brings.
If you won't let me live,
In the light he brings.
Then leave me alone,
In the sorrow of these Dark things.
Let it be in the dark,
If it can't be in light.
Though it seems wrong,
Somehow I know it's right.
Now just go away,
Leave me to be alone.
Let me suffer in my Darkness,
My misery, my home.