Vanishing

I awaken through torment and tears
Regret is building
I feel it moving
Through my skin

My heart is being devoured every time I try
I try to become numb to lose the pain
Scrapping the floor just to find your remains
Fingers bleeding, dirty and cold
Becoming more and more distant
As time slowly loses form

Drowning in this mental suicide
Escaping, filling every crack in the wall
Bleed the words I fear
In the fridged air I see
The last broken reminder
A memory, but I can't bring it to life

So much I lost
I just never want to be found
Understand please why I must do this
Deep, jagged scars have formed on these two arms
I can't get out of this trance
Afraid of what I've become
I'm losing sleep over this
I'm so tempted
To make this fragile heart stop
And it seems to be everyday

My flesh is crawling with all the regret
Lost hope and lonliness I seem to hide
I'm screaming again
But I hear nothing, these tears are only silent
Why can't you hear me?
Tell me, I'm still here

My mind is dying
Covered with darkness from you
I don't see a way around this
Slowly cutting through my soul
I've fallen through