Vapor of Water
By Poeticsky14
My spirit lingers in this melancholy state
Where the beauty of solitude seems appealing to ravens
As vultures have long awaited my falling
I try to move but I am too paralyzed by my own mind
Trapped between two conflicting worlds
Oh, how this state of consciousness looks so beautiful from this far down
Where every emotion is crushed by the weight of self defeat and stillness
I can’t believe I have fallen idol when I have planned to move ahead
...fallen miserably when I have hoped to...
Is anything good still left salvageable within me, I wonder
Or must I just abandon ship while there is still a chance
I can see then now, my thoughts whirling about above me in the wind in
a terrible waltz
Unable to put two and together I fall
I fall as though in it there would come upon me a sense of hope
And I blackout...
For the life of me I do not want to open my eyes anymore
I just want to lose sight of all those things which have slipped past me
All those cherished moments gone within seconds
And another tear falls adding moisture to the mud beneath me
Mixing with my demons who lay waiting for me
Clawing at my knees, begging for my return
Gaze at me with their wide and solitary eyes
Growing taller and taller as my knees sink toward the ground
trying to break free from their grasp
Gasping for air while there is still air to be found
Struggling while there is still time to struggle
My sight now taken as their claws dig deep into my mind
My speech now aspirated as I cried out to the thousands of gods
My heart now diminishing in rhythm as my will slowly fades
My hearing drowned out by the thickness of a thousand words
And I die, as I have died a thousand times before
Walking down the same path, in the same hour
Somehow hoping that things would change...