By tmanzano

It is always today 
when I open it all up again 

The medicine cabinet is full 
falling out into the sink 
when I open it

I have pushed that door 
for most of my life 
leaning into it as I scream out 
names from my stomach 

I thrash and gnash my teeth in terror 
so today doesn't happen again

Please Lord, not again...

Defeated, I sit on the carpet 
just outside the bathroom
wondering what will keep them in

I pull out all my hair
while I rock back and forth
babbling to myself in tongues 

I suffocate in my permissions
begging for it all to stop
pragmatically eating all the infidels 

I don't know what day it was 
this time, they told me in my shower 
when they found me

I was just wanting to know 
if the cabinet was finally closed

I was drug out like a fallen soldier 
in a hot zone, feet scrapped along the carpet 
leaving vacuum lines

I am not sure why this made me happy
but it left behind a "I cleaned up today" look 
in my house; it has been a while

Today I soil myself on a plastic bed 
in a room with a camera, talk about things like 
mommies and daddies and point at feeling pictures

Tomorrow, if I ask you 
what day it is, I already know

It is always Monday 

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Copyright 2020 tmanzano
Published on Sunday, June 28, 2020.     Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

I will be back to edit this one. The muse hit and had to type and go. It has been so long since it has visited. This is a spill out in rough form.
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  • dwells On Monday, June 29, 2020, dwells (5696)By person wrote:

    Fear has a new name TM, and it inhabits that cabinet of bad habits it seems. Nicely done my friend, and cheers! - Dan

  • tmanzano On Friday, July 3, 2020, tmanzano (229)By person wrote:

    Dan, thank you so very much sir. Humbled.

  • Queazenart On Monday, June 29, 2020, Queazenart (241)By person wrote:

    What a coincidence. I was thinking about your poetry today and came to the site to read some of your work. What a pleasant surprise it was to see you had a new piece. I don't have much to say on this. It's resonating with me at the moment because of some problematic life circumstances, though this piece takes things to creative extreme I thankfully am not at haha. I hope you're doing well, Tman, and hope to see more from you soon.

  • tmanzano On Friday, July 3, 2020, tmanzano (229)By person wrote:

    Always a pleasure that you read my writing and on top of it all, comment. Very appreciative.

  • 13sonsofgod On Sunday, June 28, 2020, 13sonsofgod (1071)By person wrote:

    Great write for it is always as i say, if you want to know whats in the heart of others...just ask them a question that you already know the answer..and their answer will tell you everything you need to know about them...13......

  • tmanzano On Friday, July 3, 2020, tmanzano (229)By person wrote:

    Thank you kindly.

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