she can't see it.

By Flavorless

she looks for an excuse to continue
though her mind cant seem to find one.
it scrambles through memories
and DM conversations,
ignoring the compliments
and words of encouragement.
she sees what she believes.
she feels the searing hot metal
of non-existent insults
branded on her skin.
she thinks flattery clashes
with the black of her clothing,
and the bags under her eyes.
that ingrained notion of self-hate
causes her to talk herself out of living,
as strangers beg for her to stay.
she doesn't believe them.
she doesn't see what they see.
she craves intimacy,
but is unable to ask for it.
she wants to feel her hands
intertwined with his,
but knows she can't have him.
holding on to the thread of hope
that she is barely able to make out
in the darkness of her reality.
the thread of hope that one day
someone might make her feel
truly alive.

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Copyright 2019 Flavorless
Published on Saturday, November 2, 2019.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

she doesn't feel that great today.
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  • Bornfrompain On Saturday, November 2, 2019, Bornfrompain (870)By person wrote:

    This was heartfelt and beautifully written!! - BFP

  • Flavorless On Saturday, November 2, 2019, Flavorless (28)By person wrote:

    thank you!

  • Shaded_Iris On Friday, November 1, 2019, Shaded_Iris (70)By person wrote:

    "If you're afraid to fly then I guess you never will." I say take the leap at your limits, and constantly test them. *Much Respect * Given*

  • Flavorless On Saturday, November 2, 2019, Flavorless (28)By person wrote:

    i appreciate the advice, my friend!

  • Lil Rorschach On Friday, November 1, 2019, Lil Rorschach (137)By person wrote:

    Great piece I feel for you a lot. While life can seem very traumatic just know that it can get better and through time you will grow. It seems hypocritical for me to tell you that you'll find love since I have that problem as well but I speak to you knowing that good things will come to good people. You will find what you need and I wish you the best in that regard. I'm sorry your day isn't going well, don't let your self hate get the better of you. It may seem hard and thats because it is but learn to live with it, because it gets better. Stay alive friend.

  • Flavorless On Friday, November 1, 2019, Flavorless (28)By person wrote:

    I appreciate it. I'll try my best.

  • Lil Rorschach On Friday, November 1, 2019, Lil Rorschach (137)By person wrote:

    That's all we can ever ask

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