By Flavorless

the definition of intimacy is
the kind of closeness she has never felt.
camaraderie and loyalty,
a warmth that makes all fear melt.
she'll trust him with her demons
so her open wounds can seal
patch the lacerations of childhood
and treat scars that'll never heal

she wants nothing more than intimacy.
she wants only to feel loved
to be cared for and fought for,
or just even to be hugged.
'cause she has demons on her side,
instead of friends and family.
she talks to them late at night,
when she can't feel her sanity.

deprived of any intimacy,
that she would ever hold.
refused pursuit of happiness,
unlike what she was told.
society ignored her,
with her soft and quiet voice.
since her friends can't seem to hear her,
she yearns to make a noise.

craving some form of intimacy,
she's desperate for it now,
lets herself be used
more than others would allow.
embarrassed of her wolf,
feeding it to keep it down.
quite often it manages to overflow,
and she's terrified she'll drown.

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Copyright 2019 Flavorless
Published on Tuesday, October 29, 2019.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

she feels very empty. she wants someone to make her feel whole.
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  • Hands_Around_My_Throat On Tuesday, October 29, 2019, Hands_Around_My_Throat (81)By person wrote:

    We can spend our whole lives trying to repair damage that somebody else imparted on is. This was really beautifully written. Unfortunately we can’t change the past, only ourselves. And even then, you need time and space to heal. Just don’t be afraid to leave. To cut ties with toxic people, blood bound or otherwise and flee. And be kind to yourself.

  • Flavorless On Wednesday, October 30, 2019, Flavorless (33)By person wrote:

    thank you for such wonderfully kind words! I appreciate it, my friend.

  • Lil Rorschach On Tuesday, October 29, 2019, Lil Rorschach (189)By person wrote:

    really well done here, this hits close to home a lot. I am fearful and yet I am so relaxed of that topic. It haunts my subconscious as I get through the day. I know how you feel, love is a fickle thing with many faces all of whom seem blurred. I have been burnt by many in that regard and I am still yet hidden in denial. My own biology is in constant invisible war with wondering eyes. I feel for you, I wish you the best and I hope you find what you are looking for soon. Great write!

  • Flavorless On Tuesday, October 29, 2019, Flavorless (33)By person wrote:

    you just lifted a huge weight off of my chest. thank you. your words mean too much for me to describe.. I hope you can learn to love your "biology," as your body and mind are the only ones you'll ever get. post again soon!~

  • Lil Rorschach On Tuesday, October 29, 2019, Lil Rorschach (189)By person wrote:

    I'm very glad that I have helped you, and I'm happy to have lifted a weight off of you. In regards to my biology I am still working on that, relationships and sexual stuff just throws me through a loop. I have been easing in to understanding it more though, also learning to cope with it instead of suppress. I love to post and am happy you are willing to read, I posted a long vent so go see that if you like. Have a great week

  • Flavorless On Wednesday, October 30, 2019, Flavorless (33)By person wrote:

    thank you my friend ! you too.

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