"Today is an abortion."

By Queazenart

I threw away your business card
as soon as I got home
because I wasn't going to talk to you again.
Not if I could help it.

I remember why I'm alone all the time.
Nobody makes me feel anything
except this tingling in my fingertips...

I want to tear them off.
Push my teeth through the skin
and pull towards me
spilling blood and pulp and marrow
onto paper like a hateful afterbirth.

I love mannerisms
and facial expressions
and words with meaning,
just not your's.

When the smell of the air
sours as I'm sitting there
gestating in a pregnant pause
in an unplanned conversation,
I feel a need to abort it
and leave it in the trash as I leave.

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Published on Sunday, February 5, 2017. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Title inspired by a quote from a friend 1-28-17

Comments on ""Today is an abortion.""

On Sunday, February 12, 2017, Drea (1388) wrote:

I'm loving your style. It's always raw and you don't sugar coat. I've felt like this. It's nice to see it in words. The more I read your work, the more I feel stupid for not reading it sooner.
On Monday, February 6, 2017, Star (879) wrote:

I'm speechless. I agreed with kink, though. The last stanza is a poem in itself.
On Monday, February 6, 2017, out there (166) wrote:

Don't have anything insightful to say except I enjoyed this, A LOT.. some gteat metaphors and this is a situation I can def relate to..your writing appears to be getting Sharper, more sophisticated maybe...you might be improving sir and that is something :)
On Monday, February 6, 2017, Queazenart (200) wrote:

Always trying to get better. Glad to hear you think I'm succeeding. "Improve daily" or whatever ;^) lol Thanks for the comment.
On Sunday, February 5, 2017, SolApathy (652) wrote:

...All too many people have this feeling.
On Sunday, February 5, 2017, dwells (4177) wrote:

Face reading is a Japanese art form, and body English another that has always fascinated me. Rare is the skillful author who can capture both with words. Your extended metaphor and characterization were wonderful, and I'm almost certainly wrongly guessing at diabetes, peripheral neuropathy, or perhaps just writer's block - so I won't (guess). Cheers Queaz! - Dan
On Sunday, February 5, 2017, Queazenart (200) wrote:

lol out of those listed possibilities, "none of the above" was the wrong answer ;^) Love the comment, brotha. Thanks for reading.
On Sunday, February 5, 2017, 10 Forty Three (543) wrote:

DAAAAAAAAMN. That was so brutally honest that I could just feel what you feel. Each line building up more and more for a final indirect blow as you walk away and leave the reader in awe. Brilliant. - 10:43