Ode To My Humanity
have no shame in admitting my defects.
I've had more than my fair share of nervous breakdowns,
And my heart was an empty grave
I once filled with vodka, nightmares, and complexes of persecution.
Over the span of three and a half decades,
I've made my life a journey...
And not a diagnosis.
My confidence can be as fragile as sea shells by the sea shore,
But my soul can't be sold like them.
My empathy glistens like rose quartz
And you can get lost in it like the Bermuda Triangle...
But it has sometimes burned down
Like the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory.
My brain is the scene of the crime
I compulsively revisit.
I must fight the powerlessness
And keep doing the right thing,
As I am my own worst public enemy.
I keep my worth on wanted posters
Because I want it to stay bountiful.
I desire to storm hemispheres housing
The Tower of London
A European travelogue of mental incarceration.
Where negativity is embossed like license plates
And heavily labored like chain gangs.
Therapists have led me astray
Since my adolescence.
The eighth Doctor Who treats me
Will hopefully be my companion
And not leave me lost in the time-space continuum,
Where antidepressants run rampant like Daleks.
You may see my universe as alternate and parallel to yours,
But it's the only universe I know.
Damned if I can walk around
Lynched by a silk noose
Forty hours a week.
My life is defined beyond an income bracket.
Tax forms do not withhold my spirit.
If only they withheld your judgments.
I have sinned and transgressed
In more ways than I care to admit
To you or to God Almighty on Yom Kippur.
I admit to not being above personal accountability.
It would be nice
To hear you admit
To not being above
Everybody around you.
You experiment with identities
like a mad scientist in a meth lab,
Magnifying your ego
Like an electron microscope
As if all your genes are dominant
And your mortality will never recede.
This isn't Gattaca.
You're a hawk, but your name isn't Ethan.
You can't review the mistakes and shortcomings of your peers like movies on Rotten Tomatoes.
We are both works in progress.
The sooner you admit to your humanity,
Proving yourself brave, truthful, and unselfish,
You will be a real man.
You will accept that love is the ultimate osmosis
And that you are surrounded by membranes meant to be penetrated.
Best not to spend life erecting walls.
Best not to spend life digging graves.