I Used To

By darkness_descends

A salty sting burns my throat
As I choke down another tear
Falling into a saddened heart
Already broken but still falling apart
There was a time when it was whole
A time when I could feel
A time I used to dream of happiness
A time I used to dream of contentment
All now a faded memory
Recalled only under a teary distortion

I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of pleasure
I used to dream of pain
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide
I used to

Now I dream of darkness
Now I dream of swirling blackness
Now I dream of an endless void
Now I dream of eternal night
Now my dreams are empty
Just like me

This unbearable nothingness taunts me
The thing for which I always yearned
When nightmares chased me as I tossed and turned
The death of human emotions I never wanted

I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of the joy of my last breath
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide
I used to

Now I wish that I could feel
Now I wish that I could cry
Now I wish that I could die
Now I wish that could hurt
Now I wish that I could bleed
If only to know that I am real

I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide

I used to but now I know they do
And I wish I could dream it all away.

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Copyright 2003 darkness_descends
Published on Saturday, September 6, 2003.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • Shikiryu On Tuesday, February 24, 2015, Shikiryu (70)By person wrote:

    this is really deep, great poem

  • Aurora_Light On Saturday, September 6, 2003, Aurora_Light (472)By person wrote:

    dreams and feelings are powerfull great job i oved this write nice job

  • A former member wrote: Bebedora-"Everything returns to darkness", shes so right...happiness doesnt last for long

  • Crystal Passion On Saturday, September 6, 2003, Crystal Passion (221)By person wrote:

    Sighness, what pain you must feel, for your words make me feel it. EXJ - Kryz

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