Beta Wolf skateing on ice (Sunday, 25 January 2015)
By BetaWolfinVA
With speechless days getting more frequent, I do not think smooth sailing
is an option "Has fallen to silence and mumbles" Is literal. Only question
is if it is slowly being caused by Traumatic Brain injury, Diabetes Mellitus
type II, stress, depression, or congenital cyst in the left temporal lobe.
That becoming suddenly poly again in 2012 (I want Raven and Gaia to know
each other and be friends, I want to be a distant (1.5 hours one way without
traffic) part of Raven and Samwise life) in the middle of a monogamous
marriage put near terminal stresses on it... and I can feel my impulse
control fleeing at perhaps half the rate of my speech.
It took an act of will to not go to the memorial service. I wanted Gaia
with me to protect me from my self.
Now neither Gaia (my legal and sole wife), nor raven (an ex poly wife during
a previous marriage .. sorry, ex "roommate" if one of her husbands relatives
ask) want any thing to do with me.
It has taken since 15 Nov 14 for Gaia to forgive me. I do not think
Raven ever will... but she will probably destroy my life again in 2018
if the pattern holds.