Unsure but what the hell

I used to think I really loved you
Sometimes I can't even stand you
You used to make me so horny
Now usually you're just boring
With every breath I'm frustrated
I feel our time here is wasted
Don't get me wrong I still care
But unsure if I should stay here
You're like a desert with too much rain
The sharp pain at the base of my brain
Oh the conundrum of our love, love, love
You're a habit without an addiction
Static electricity without any friction
Just in shambles or in love, love, love?
I can't seem to let this end here
Full of anxiety and spent up fear
Needing your kindness around me
A callous heart screaming for mercy
We're not perfect but that's okay
We've been through pleasure and pain
We've tried to avoid getting hurt
We can learn to make this work
I know I'm no saint in this sinning body
I'm no better than anyone around me
I just want to learn how to love, love, love
I hold my shaking hand out to you
Trying my best to fully trust you
Show me how to love, love, love