Hate Could Never be Enough

By applecookies

There’s a place in my heart
Reserved for two lovely ladies
Different yet
Similar in many ways
 
Cut from the same cloth
Brought to the same fate
Silent in their terror tactics
Killing in cold blood
 
The first fair skinned
Flowing auburn hair
Outgoing at times
Reserved at others
The history we have
Could fill
Eight or nine calendars
My best friend
My trusted foe
Fell from beneath me
 
Left without a trace
Riding into the night
With a mission to destroy
All good in my life
 
The second with lacey blonde hair
Naïve
Helpless
With years still to grow
Into the demon she is now
 
You were scared
I rescued you
You cried
I laughed with you in support
 
I was never enough
But you never told me
You allowed me to become
My own monster
 
My fair-skinnned auburn friend
You sat back and watched me burn
And when my ashes were all that remained
The two of you took turns throwing the remains into the sea
So that my hopes
Dreams
And life would be lost
So that no one could ever bring me to the surface again
So that everyday I tasted my own blood in the back of my throat
So that I was dying from inside
 
This was your plan all along
Ladies one and all
You wanted to devastate
 
But I danced under the moon
I experienced weightlessness
And I broke from current that would take me nowhere
 
I defeated the odds
And I lived
 
And today when I pass you in the hall
Hate is not enough
 
That seldom word will never amount to the pain
The torture I dealt with
Your smiles as I turned and walked away
Your grace through your horrible deeds
 
Nothing and I mean nothing
No word ever
Can ever compensate for what you have done
 
And rather than hate you
I wish the same misery for both of you
Ten times greater than the struggles I endured
 
To hate you would mean I care
 
I just want to be even
And never have to hear your voices again as long as I live

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Copyright 2014 applecookies
Published on Sunday, February 23, 2014.     Filed under: "Rage" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: I too never thought of hate as caring . you have opened my eyes of which I am thankful for . A good write and hello from a newbie xx

  • Commander_Cadaver On Saturday, March 8, 2014, Commander_Cadaver (266)By person wrote:

    Great write. Never thought of hating as caring, more of a driving force to destroy the obstacles (people) that stand in the way. But everyone sees things differently than other people do. Again, great write.

  • applecookies On Sunday, February 23, 2014, applecookies (33)By person wrote:

    Thank you, I appreciate the commentary xx

  • Lux On Sunday, February 23, 2014, Lux (318)By person wrote:

    This was a "fuck you" cocktail spiked with some severity of a kind I can't name. I like that you'd rather not hate her, them, because then you would be giving them your feelings which they aren't worth. Well wrought, friend

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