I confess

By ColorMeToxic

 

I said I would never write about You again.

I Hate that I Lied but apparently, I did.



To you,
I confess 
that
today you
disappointed me,
like you 
always
have before.

That's you.

I should
have seen
that coming
except,
I'm too
fucking
stupid
to see the 
loop
in the things
that you do.

I obsess 
over it
and try 
so hard
to make
damn
sure
that myself 
and my 
daughters
take 
every
opportunity 
to become
everything 
that you are 

Not.

I am often 
terrified
that I will
go to sleep...

myself,

and wake up...

You.


I don't 
want to.

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© 2015 Beth Greene
Published on Thursday, August 2, 2018.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

I just don't understand how someone could give birth to someone else and then forget about them.
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  • haunted On Wednesday, April 10, 2013, haunted (850)By person wrote:

    i love the way you expressed yourself in this poem beth. i could feel your anger exactly when intended. the situation sounds horrible for you and your daughters and i hope you get through this ordeal. thanks for sharing.

  • FadedBlues On Friday, April 5, 2013, FadedBlues (2169)By person wrote:

    ...take heart in the knowledge that your children will never write something like this...

  • ColorMeToxic On Friday, April 5, 2013, ColorMeToxic (240)By person wrote:

    Thank you so much for saying that... Scholar

  • darkness falls On Friday, April 5, 2013, darkness falls (73)By person wrote:

    I'm sorry, Beth...

  • lupus tenebrae On Thursday, April 4, 2013, lupus tenebrae (872)By person wrote:

    Yes, it does seem like a dead horse, eh? You think you've all but removed a part of your life, then suddenly, it encroaches again. I had a muse like that once. Had that faithful day not come where I realized that he was a man and not a monster, I would have still been writing about him. Scholar

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