I'm getting a Mite Spin Dizzy

By BetaWolfinVA

the one that is the
darkness on my soul gave me
the address that she
and her husband are planning
on buying and moving to

she met her husband
living with first wife and I
torturing me through
loveless marriage that didn't
end until my love married
.
without her i don't
live, write, even truly love
she is my dark muse
she is the only thing that
makes eternity hopeful
.
i've had her address
all of the last sixteen years
used it for three years
why would she give me the new
when i am not welcome there
.
i would leave my wife
i would join them if i could
if he would share her
she has told me that he lets
her play without love, feelings

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Copyright Saturday, 23 February 2013 HHMCameron
Published on Saturday, February 23, 2013.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

I don't kow what to think, why would she give me this new address, i've loved her for years, hell, googled her for from aug to dec, followed her on twitter, she followed me back, i text her to stay sane (hows that working out... not real well)
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  • A former member wrote: She sounds like a woman that likes to play games.. with that said find someone else more deserving of you.. and as for your wife.. don't stay because she wants you to stay because you want to and if you don't want to be with her than don't it will only hurt her and yourself further... nicely penned write.. I wish you all the luck in life and love.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Wednesday, February 27, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    i rarely, if ever, put my self first... and when i do, i feel guilty... q.v. "nothing that you want matters" http://www.darkpoetry.com/node/work/170326 Scholar

  • Ravenblade On Sunday, February 24, 2013, Ravenblade (313)By person wrote:

    I think you allow yourself to be hurt...Raven sounds young and gameful, and like she just likes having options....burning bridges and then rebuilding them before things fall apart. I just think that things are not what they seem when you're looking as well...as for this, it was well developed, simple, and tells exactly what it needs to, and doesn't feel overly structured, but carries the appearance.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Sunday, February 24, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    my raven is 30 now... i dont know what her intentions are... or maybe she just doesnt understand how i still feel Scholar

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, February 23, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    i am in therepy, all it has told me is that i really do want out, have wanted out for a while... the only reason i am staying in is because my wife wants to stay... Scholar

  • PoetessDarkly On Saturday, February 23, 2013, PoetessDarkly (700)By person wrote:

    I know it doesn't help much when you hear "GET A LIFE BUDDY" She isn't torturing you she is trying to make you feel better. she sounds a tad guilty. and yet maybe it is her that is holding on giving you hope. I say find someone else to obsess over. You are only creating your own demons to torture yourself. Obviously she is stringing you along I feel it with all your poetry.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, February 23, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    so it does sound like she wants me in her life still, but wants to be in control of the level of contact? Scholar

  • PoetessDarkly On Wednesday, February 27, 2013, PoetessDarkly (700)By person wrote:

    I am not sure about that part. No one I mean no one can make you feel anything. You are the one in control how you feel. She isn't your brain that drives your obsession. You allow her to rule your heart and soul. She has moved on and she is controlling you cause she knows she can. She feels empowered by your obsession. As long as you grant her the power, she will take advantage of you. As far as your current wife. it would be best if you left, cause you are doing the same thing to your current wife as Raven is doing to you.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Wednesday, February 27, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    it is my wifes choice to stay... i don't know how much longer i can put my life on hold Scholar

  • dwells On Saturday, February 23, 2013, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    You are obsessed mate and threesomes never end well - don't be used, or re-used, cheers!

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, February 23, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    I know i am obsessed... what i dont understand is why she wants me that way. Scholar

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