So i over share
By BetaWolfinVA
I talk to the world of my disappointments
of my lost love, that still
gives me great pain
of the current love that i find i cannot feel
of my pining over children never born
nor to my knowledge conceived
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i was an accidental predator
she with the red-raven hair
lied about her age
accepted my soul
and threw my heart
away
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married now and
losing my mind
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eighty
pounds (or more)
separates me from holding
my own child in my
arms
should she shed eighty pounds
should i shed four hundred?
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crying my self to sleep
wearing headphones
to drown
out the noise
is not conducive
to me wanting to break
the
wall of pillows
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i am tired of
living without
the
cuddles
that make
life worth living
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dreaming about
cuddles counted
in terms of three
raven, her husband,
and me
Author's Note:
crashing down slowly... maybe i can keep living this wayComments on "So i over share"
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On Tuesday, May 14, 2013, Intoxicating Delirium
(275) wrote:
This is so sad, your predicament. Lovely poem.
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On Tuesday, June 4, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
Glad that you enjoyed it, i find i am learning to dream again...
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On Friday, February 15, 2013, Ravenblade
(313) wrote:
I think I have a hard time reading much of your poetry because it takes me back to battles I have had to fight one way or another, and times when I was not of a right mind to make those battles. Looks like you are taking the same path I did...only time will tell sir. This was painstaking to read though it was not my story, it shed light on a time it would have pertained.
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On Friday, February 15, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
its hard to look in the mirror... but its also cathartic
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On Tuesday, February 5, 2013, PoetessDarkly
(700) wrote:
just one small spelling error, "Loosing", it should read "losing". I know what this feels like, I have loved and lost than wondered if I could get it back again.
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On Wednesday, February 6, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
humm... could that be a freudian slip (though i think that a silk one cloaks the female form better) that begs the question of am i misplacing my mind (losing) or setting it free (loosing)... interesting
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On Tuesday, February 5, 2013, dwells
(4285) wrote:
I don't think sharing is ever a very satisfactory solution, at least for very long, best of luck HH!
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On Wednesday, February 6, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
lol... title came before the end... but funny how it fits the end too... i think part of my issues is that i read a bit too much Heinlein in my Formative Years (stranger in a strange land, the moon is a harsh mistress, time enough for love, the number of the beast, the cat who walks through walls, etc) Poly Poly Hai... Cross that with dynastic pressures... grape be getting squeezed