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Cognizance
By Nehema
Beyond the state of complete awareness
From the sidelines I watch
Helpless...
I have no control
...or do I?
Against
my will I feel
...urges...
Deep seeded longing
to be touched
In an Unkindly manner
Passion cascades down my body
Like a loose silk dress
As the longing reaches my core
Sending me into convulsions
This (un)Natural need
To be feasted upon
...and to feed...
Rocking back and forth In
my corner
Watching
...waiting...
For what?
Sweet release
For
years denied she was a part of me
Convinced we were 2
Cut her throat and buried her deep
With a cross that
said
"I do"
To rot in the cellar of my mind I
chose to forget...
Little did I know I trapped myself In
that dank and musty place
Fell asleep, unconscious
With her limp at my feet
Til the day that
truth dawned
Clear as a glacier stream
And
I could no longer deny
Her mortality was tied to mine
We share more than a body
...a broken mind...
Time and thought brought reality
Full Circle
Defensive mechanism
Gone awry
Scared
lil girl
With big round eyes
She never understood
love
Only interpreted
Pain...and...
Deception
Seeing her clearly now
For the first time in my life
just a lil girl
Scared, curious, angry, confused
Lost, alone, cold
and abused
No longer fearful of what she might do
I embrace her, accept her, love her
Try to begin
life again, renew
And then along came you...
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Copyright 2012 Robyn Layne
Author's Note:
Demons are realComments on "Cognizance"
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On Monday, March 9, 2015, Phalanx
(678)
wrote:
This is something that I'm sure reaches so many because it can be interpreted in so many ways. You have a very broad reach and a haunting way of expressing yourself. I don't know you but, it's a pleasure to make your acquaintance.
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A former member wrote:
YOu're so GReat at WRiting~ I REally ADore all of your work!
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On Tuesday, November 6, 2012, haunted
(850) wrote:
robyn this was really good. and i love how you realize that you must co-exist with a part of you that may have died or assumed forgotten. memories can be triggered by the slightest pointless things and its like it never left. thanks for sharing robyn! awesome!
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A former member wrote:
I was listening to some instrumentals when I came across this piece. The emotions this piece brought out was deep and vivid. I read it twice and I must say I a m digging the vibe throughout.
Nice one, hun :P
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A former member wrote:
they are very real... waiting to take control, tired of playing dead, tired of looking through their own eyes as if it were a piece of glass keeping them from the very world they live in.
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On Thursday, November 1, 2012, FadedBlues
(2169) wrote:
...too many people living inside of you, Robyn. you at last understand 1, & then another comes along to harass your nightmares...
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On Thursday, November 1, 2012, Star
(920) wrote:
wow robyn, i loved the lines "try to begin life, renew and then along came you.. i say this has to be your best one yet.. well friggin done here robyn (:
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A former member wrote:
That was amazing, I like the cross witht the words I DO
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On Thursday, November 1, 2012, BrokenKatra
(61) wrote:
wow..for lack of better words just wow. Robyn this is amazing. I love every single word. Your authors note just sent it over the edge for me. You are quite an amazing writer. Thank you for sharing this. It is awesome, excellent and heart wreaching. kept me reading. I loved it.
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On Thursday, November 1, 2012, Markus Darkscribe
(60) wrote:
Well well, you don't pen as often, but when you do it's excellent good job orange.
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A former member wrote:
i agree with dev wow...fucked me up more than i care to admit:''Scared, curious, angry, confused
Lost, alone, cold and abused ''...fucking heart wrenching! always love reading your work
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On Thursday, November 1, 2012, Devilish
(2658) wrote:
OMG!!! I just got chills all over my body.. Damn. . this is so fucking beautifully tragically honest and then along came you. WOW!!!! fuck me . I haven't read anything this good in a while. I needed this this morning. you delivered a hell of a blow with a kiss. damn.. whew. i need a breather..
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