disorderly- asylum door #4

By anathema

post-traumatic stress disorder

(noun)

: a psychological reaction that occurs after experiencing a highly stressing event (as wartime combat, physical violence, or a natural disaster) outside the range of normal human experience and that is usu. characterized by depression, anxiety, flashbacks, recurrent nightmares, and avoidance of reminders of the event.

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it's just another sunny day
easy to fake being okay
plaster that smile upon my face
and act with proper social grace
my past? what past? there's nothing there
i've chosen to be unaware...

the light starts to
dim
and all i see is
him

unbidden
i see
all that's happened
to me

i've dismissed and
denied
what i've shut
inside

yet i see the
attack
thus begins the

/flash/

/back/

...
light
fright
tears
fears
cry
"why?"

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Published on Tuesday, July 8, 2003. Filed under: "Poetry"

Comments on "disorderly- asylum door #4"

A former member wrote: ok, i haven't read them all yet, but you are definitely going on my fave poets list...
On Thursday, May 26, 2005, smearedXmakeup (19) wrote:

Love
On Wednesday, March 10, 2004, flying_fox (573) wrote:

the most visually brilliant so far, and the words are...unparalleled. Simply amazing. Fox
On Tuesday, September 16, 2003, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

You are a very good writer. This is just amazing.
On Tuesday, September 2, 2003, angelunderneath (60) wrote:

Wow! THe writing is awesome, obviously but the use of the colors was just amazing...I am awe-struck!
On Wednesday, July 9, 2003, Jonas (720) wrote:

wow... minx, you are a treasure... i felt i was inside my head, stuck with nowhere to turn nowhere to turn... perfectly written
A former member wrote: I truly understand this part of your psychosis. My own father molested me in my sleep. I cannot get rid of that Neverending Nightmare.
On Wednesday, July 9, 2003, Six-Out (1435) wrote:

Oh my, this one really touched me. You have put yourself out there, and we have seen the inner you. This is a true masterpiece of human emotions. I salute you.
A former member wrote: nothing really traumatic has ever happened to me and i think that's one of the reasons my writing is not great, this is a wonderful piece.
A former member wrote: It's beautiful, and having PTSD, I really really can relate.
On Wednesday, July 9, 2003, IceDragoness (195) wrote:

me too... *hugs everyone* gah wish the little fucker flashbacks would go away... ~Dawn
On Tuesday, July 8, 2003, anathema (50) wrote:

this is a piece about PTSD... this is how it manifests in me... makes it often quite difficult to be in social situations... the flashbacks come when and as they please.