Lustrum

By Scarrzz







Five years ago today I ripped open my chest and gave my heart to you.

Five years ago tomorrow I started to die.

"Never again."

Three months ago I decided I would try to live without you.

Every moment I know that deep in my chest is emptiness.

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Ten years ago today I opened my heart because it was the only way I could do what you asked of me.

The love inside spilled out, overflowing, drowning who I was.

I made this choice willingly, out of a tiny hope that you actually wanted all of me.

That was my price. I needed to be wanted.

I believed that I was for that moment.

"Never again."




 

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Copyright 2011 Scarrzz
Published on Thursday, August 11, 2016.     Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

2nd verse added 8/11/16
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  • dwells On Thursday, August 11, 2011, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    Heartfelt piece and wondering about the title "Lustrum" as a scrambled word (anagram?): rum sLut, rum Lust, must ruL, something Latin (it's Greek to me) - Thanks

  • Scarrzz On Friday, August 12, 2011, Scarrzz (238)By person wrote:

    Lustrum is a real English word first popularized during the Roman Empire as a period of five years. You're quite right though, I did intend for each syllable to convey a contributing meaning. Scholar

  • A former member wrote: i know this emptiness as if it were my own. Scholar


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