Why do you hate me?
This is to my mother
(At the time I was 7 and he was 14)
When I was young I would lay awake at night wondering:
Where is my mother?
Then you would come home cussing and screaming about how you are a terrible gambler.
It was best to stay out of your way but I was a stupid child.
I say "Mom,can you make me something to eat?"
And you look at me as if I just said a swear word and you slap me across the face.
You say,"Damn it,Shania,Haven't I told you not to talk to me when I get home."
I sit on the floor crying and my brother comes out and asked what happened.
He sees me on the ground and sees the anger in your eyes.
He grabs me and pulls me into his room.
Before the door closes you hit him with the belt.
He starts to cry and says"Why do you hate me?"
You say,'I don't hate you,You just piss me off."
He says,"FUCK YOU!!!!"and he slams the door.
You bang on the door and you tell him if he doesn't open it you will kill us both.
My brother has it locked and he sits down next to me and holds me i have a bruise forming on my face from what you have done.
He says."Shania, I know it hurts but one day we will escape.....I promise."
I say"Thank you Gil(pronounced hill)I love you more than ever and I don't want to die."
Gil says,"Don't worry she will kill me first and you can run."
I say"No,I won't leave you."
And at that moment you bust through the door.
Gil hits you with a bat and you fall down unconscious.
We run next door hoping for safety.
Our cousin is home and we run inside scared for our lives.
They call the cops and they take us away they try and separate us and we argue and fight they send us to Lexis and Tom our true parents they never raised a hand to us and they never swore at us there children Natalie,Jason,Ryan,Chris,and Kyle excepted us and we never looked back.
But when Lexis and Tom died we had to come back to you and the place we call hell.
The others went to there grandmother.
When we came back you cried and hugged us and said you missed us.(At this moment I was 9 and Gil was 16 and he lived with his father I didn't know where my father was but now I live with him and I regret it)
And then after a week the torture began again so I ask you,"Cynthia(my mother)why do you hate me and Gil but loved the others?Why did you try and kill us so many times?"*sigh* but some how we both still love you how is it possible?
(But now I'm 13 and Gil is 20 and he is safe from our crazy mother but am I?)