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P.T.S.D.
By ColorMeToxic
It's 3:30 A.M. and I can't sleep
My past is consuming me
PTSD
I can't sleep because
the shadows will get me
PTSD
I'm parnoid, because of you
all the things
you put me through,
all the things you did,
or didn't
do...I love and I hate you
(I don't want to do either)
and maybe I'm a little bit angry
I think I've earned that
But when I see your faces
in my dreams...I scream
PTSD
(you still terrify me)
I tell myself I am
healing
then shadows return
they control me, and paralize
me
Oh, how I wish shadows could burn...
and free me...please
free me
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© 2015 Beth Greene
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On Monday, March 17, 2014, haunted
(850)
wrote:
this sounds like a place with no escape, and post traumatic stress disorder can make it all the more intense. I know your a sensitive person and apathetic. I wish I could tell you that it will pass and that it will be ok, but living with that disorder can shake the very foundation that seems to be stable. I wish you the best and I hope counseling is in this picture. one on one therapy is very cognitive and mentally therapeutic. I don't know the situation but whatever it is, validation and someone who understands can be the light in the darkness. it can be what stands in your way that makes healing difficult. you can mail me beth if you would ever like to talk. I miss you lots, and I hope your smile can be seen in your dreams, because monsters hate smiles. because it means they have been defeated by your will to let go. a very nicely written poem beth, and thank you for sharing this vulnerable side of you. awesome!
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A former member wrote:
Images of my ex wavered before my eyes just now. I don't know if that's what you were going for, but I enjoyed it. It put into words how I feel at some moments And I sure do feel this. Thank you.
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On Monday, March 26, 2012, Gray Vision
(425) wrote:
It never really goes away does it? Has it gotten any better over the years and how often does your PTSD act up like this?
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On Sunday, July 3, 2011, LadyNovella
(18) wrote:
the past always remains, always threatens to destroy you. this is an exellent piece, well written, and all too true.
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On Sunday, July 3, 2011, Devilish
(2658) wrote:
Dont let them tell you that medication helps... I promice that it does'nt... I know!
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A former member wrote:
i got shivers. this hit me deep. emotional and very, very raw. lyrical and the rhythm smoothly vanishing into madness. wonderful. brilliant.
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