Godsent Goodbye.

  Her and I
When before
It was just myself and me
Holding the candle lit
To warm my thoughts of Cleveland dreamin'
And despite the distances between
I could see clearly the median and means
I dare not overstep



But step by step
With increasing cadence
It was obvious
That what She gave us



.Was.



...Captivating...



...Escalating...



To the point that waiting became too much to bare.



And I wanted.
God, all I want
Is to gaze into her stare
Lose it in her kiss
Slip into the surreality of her fingertips
Streamlined up and down my spine
And at times
Digging into my hips
And feel safe
With all they days she used to say,
"Everything will be alright."



As she lay me down to rest
Next to her side of the bed



But the true reality...



...Was worthless to me



Until a certain recollection had me recollecting the connection made from my lips to her neck.



And I realize now



That a penny for her thoughts
Costs
Roughly the amount of my own guilt
Heavier than a cross
Upon a broken back
With edges sharpened near the vein



And in vain
I couldn't hide
The stain of previous sin and mercy lost
Pierce proved impervious
And unable to love
Unable to lust
Unable to live



Until pain pulls free
As you did
Taking with it
The release
Of my lament
Along
With all the days you'll never say,
"Everything will be alright."



And I let go
Knowing it hurts so much
To never say goodbye
When goodbye
Is the only way



To move on.