and this should be easy

you make my eyes sting
and it's happening again
and how is it
in fact that I have such little understanding

with love and wanting

and even worse than that
is how much I'm starting to watch your mouth
how your lips bend and twist
with each simple word released
and how much wetness is between my aching legs
and all the guilt that seeps into my thoughts
of how this isn't right

and it has nothing to do with you having another
or me doing something deceptive
or wrong

and it's beyond me why
each and every time
you're around me
I can't breathe

and can only see your hands touching me

and the worst part of everything
and all of this

is why I'm thinking