inevidable obsession

im smoking a lucky
utterly devoted to you
y the fuck do i feel this
y do i put myself through jealousy
a hatred only you can calm
that i myself cant contain
i curtsey to you
and your ability to be unattached
y am i so angry
this molds my mind
that stupid fucking word... consuming
i cant expand
my words broad and bland
you say assuming is fucked up
but the truth is youll assume just as much as i
youll find that jealusy
joy and a powerfull attraction
utter bliss
love the annexation to life
is this really it or am i just too afraid to admit im alone
im dieing wishing youd understand me
wishing this mind exausting obsession would be mutual
i find myself wanting just that
your obsession
selfish as it may seem
its overpowering
and its all that controls my dreams
im falling knowing more or less youll pick me up
but hopoing youll let me keep decending to fate
to shatter my thoughts i cant escape
because im babbling
im fucking babbling
does anyone understand this
im living my life waiting for you to becum as obsessed as i
eagerly cumming to find denial
it may seem as if i dont know what i am writing
but all im doing is writing truth
im thrusting it in your face
bitch slaping you till you understand this inevidable outcum
can u not see how much i want to hate you
i want you to feel how attached i am to you
because nothing makes sence
as it shouldnt
you cant put a mark on something untouchable
and sometimes you just cant think
maybe to nervous
or a sense of secrecy ripples over
you dont want to lose all you have
or lose happiness youve never had before
but i cant escape being scared
i just wish youd understand my fucked up logic