the beginning of living
By LovesInjecedVirus
ive been down this road of obstruction
i had the desire to be a reble and live the life of a rockstar
its my life
a girl in a tux
a boy wearing eyeliner
contradictions to what this society maims as normal or the "look"
the lifestyle...
sex drugs an rock an roll
ive had it
i do it
ive done it
.....
and its ruined me
its obstructed my view and steared me into an ocean
an ocean where only the fish can live
with tides of truth that almost killed me
clean.....
i love it but hate it
the feeling of believing but loosing the only thing that made me feel ok
for 2 months
my feelings have gone crazy
finding something worth waiting for
someone you cant wait another second to see
a person who can turn your stomach 360 degrees and youll still want more
an emotion that you cant push out of your head
..... not that you want to
a psychadelic image of being happy
is it true
my life happy...
maybe complete
how can one person turn you into a noodle
and reside in their domain every night for 2 weeks
learning the intricat parts of your body
exploring your pleasure
your buttons and weak spots that make you squirm and cock your head back
your screams and the sounds you make
i love that feeling
of exploring your personality... your body
seeing how rough i can actually get
before you scream for me to stop
tell me that it hurts be gentle