dirty little slut

sun welts my skin like kiss fresh on the scars
and day is forgiveness
forgiveness that can forgive, but hasn't so far

The beauty lapsed in what has and won't be again
a kiss not forgotten
wasted on a world glued together with shit and pretend

what has happened to my heart ...

begging and grasping for you,

and there it goes ...

while it's slowly torn apart.


when I look in you
I'm six,
I'm on my back
and I feel the rape
Im eight
and I'm bleeding
and I've had all I can take
I'm sixteen
and there's a corpse in my arms
One I ...
protected,
One that I ...
harmed
I'm eighteen and I'm starving
I'm starving...
And I'm here, and I'm now
And I'm staring into you

You make me human

while you abuse

you make me real

you bring me down
you make me feel

you scrape together the scraps of virgin left after the taking and make them whole
Where old wounds were dolls, they moved and walked slow,

where death was you
the sad and saccharine suicide chokes
and midnight blue homicide grows
you are me where the death is slow
you are me where the heart won't go
you are the me I don't want to know

you're such a dirty little slut.