is this for you, or against you
By whisperer
desperate circles, twisting, seeking, closer
i don't know me and i don't see me
i don't need to because i don't care
dancing fire rings, as bright as my obituary sings
turning
burning
this white room has become my prison
it's so lovely
how this becomes me
shot in the heart and i just stare
all because of the confusion i always wear
these nails in my eyes help shed my tears
was this a plan
did you fuck me
i thinks it's always been this cracked inside of here
you don't know me
you won't see me
you're so sweet and i should not care
so controlling
twisting and burning
my mind ravages itself and i'm not here
waiting
shaking this faceless reflection that brought me down
here i am
waiting in the dark i always wear
still waiting for you to disappear from my thoughts as the whip lays them
bare
stomach churning
fucking yearning
i don't own me but i don't care
i realize i'm not all there
too late for apologies and i should not care
i just sit here and watch me
i never help me
i just sit in my shit
did you know this
can you see this
come and watch me die with veins layed bare
could it be you
could you see through
i should be somewhere now where i don't care
what happened to my patience
where's the pretence
i don't enjoy the lonely that i've always shared
an open window, tattered curtains rippling in the cool breeze
broken moonlight cuts through dark corners
i'm still awake battling electric pulses that are frying my brain
everyone knows me
but no one sees me
i'm doing great but i was never ok
i have defeated myself again
Comments on "is this for you, or against you"
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A former member wrote:
I don't think I'll ever have the words for this one..
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A former member wrote:
..twisting in circles around the words and then the words you wrote just before.. I didn't miss a beat of this.. never do, every time I read.. this makes me cry for you..
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A former member wrote:
Dude. I can so completely relate to this that it makes me want to cackle. Just a little though. Can't over do a good cackle. Fucking sweet write. ~Ship!