first-time bulimiac

By doll on the rag

i stuck a finger
down my throat,
dollar-store manicure and all

vomited up
the parts of you
that hadn't quite digested

it wasn't pretty.

now i keep them
on a shelf

out of sight
out of mind

where i won't be tempted
to swallow them again
despite my hunger.

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Published on Friday, November 11, 2005. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "first-time bulimiac"

On Monday, February 3, 2014, hazydaisy (132) wrote:

Aside from the misspelling of bulimic, this was the best shit i've read on here in a minute. nicely done and congrats on pod.
On Tuesday, July 5, 2011, Malice In Wonderland (987) wrote:

This is so close to the truth of anytime I've felt anything similar, not that that makes sense, or anything...
On Saturday, November 12, 2005, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

...haha, a cute girl, AND with a slightly morbid side...? I may have to make travel plans...
On Saturday, November 12, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

"slightly"? you apparently don't know me very well... yet. ;) oh, but my program rules state you can't visit me 'til january. come for my birthday!
On Saturday, November 12, 2005, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

...rules...? you play by the rules...!? the date's off... :P
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

when breaking the rules (again) will get me kicked out of the program, then yes. don't flatter yourself- you're not worth me being sent back to the states early. =)
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

...(again)? meaning you broke 'em for someone else...? I feel cheated...
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, manywalks (750) wrote:

Hey, my legs are short, and you want me to reach don't ya?
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

...I dunno if having a girl tell me to bend down is good or bad just yet... :P
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, manywalks (750) wrote:

Slap you? Well, if you insist, bend down just a wee bit. ~
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, SilentStalker (1066) wrote:

...nah, I'd opt to be nice and wait it out anyways...shit, did I just say that...? somebody slap me...
On Sunday, November 13, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

i already broke the rules for one dp member... didn't work out so well, and i am thus not exactly inclined to do it again. =/ but maybe you could bribe me.
A former member wrote: *Jumps up and down with her hand in the air* PICK ME PICK ME PICK ME! This is WONDERFUL!!! I wanna eat your words...but...I'm afraid they might taste of bile...Gods, this is brilliant. *Evangel*
A former member wrote: !!! what a great maniacal metaphor.. . absolutely abhorred/adored by myself. ..greatness
On Friday, November 11, 2005, Malice In Wonderland (987) wrote:

your lovely, and amazing, and I'm at a loss of words.
On Friday, November 11, 2005, Myrrhkuri the fallen one (94) wrote:

wonderfully gross.
On Friday, November 11, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

thanks, dear. =) (see below for appropriate response; i am lazy.)
A former member wrote: euch, that was really good. 4th bit was kinda gross. really interesting.
On Friday, November 11, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

actually, that's quite a compliment. iwanted it to be gross.
A former member wrote: good good coz it really was. i didn't mean to make that as a bad thing though. just really liked it
On Saturday, November 12, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

i didn't take it as a bad thing at all. =) it made me smile.
On Friday, November 11, 2005, Sticky Kitty (242) wrote:

You warped heartache into a tangiable substance, a gleaming disease. wondeful write. -kitty
On Friday, November 11, 2005, doll on the rag (200) wrote:

ahh, you... i always feel some awkward sense of pride when you like my uselessness.