A Mourning Past

By liquid_emotion

It sickens me when I remember your arms
Wrapped so tightly, so tightly...
never tight enough
Holding a much younger, more vulnerable me
And I am angry by the sudden longing I feel
When I remember a youth wholly encompassed
in your eyes
Eyes that spoke of everything but my future
My heart aches for this ‘now’ I dwell within
Tainted by repressed emotion I shouldn’t have
Affected by your presence living inside me
A love that has changed from passion to lingered warmth
But never left, never died...
not for a moment, a glimpse, a sigh
And you are so much a part of me, these years later
A part of each brick in these walls I’ve built
Each morning you have been brought back to me incomplete the night before
You touched my whole life, unknowing, unintentional
Consequences undreamt of in our moments together
But now I stand here aching...
on solid feet
With tears I cannot repress, love I no longer understand
And this insatiable longing for knowledge
To know it’s okay to move on without you
To love beyond you, to dream again…
in color

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Published on Tuesday, March 18, 2003. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "A Mourning Past"

On Tuesday, April 28, 2015, TropicalSnowstorm (1703) wrote:

Wonderful piece and a nice blast from the past! I wonder where you are and how you have been... I hope you have had a lion's share of adventures and sky views from the sands of distant shores. : ) Ciao, T/S
A former member wrote: Wretched LOVE... but without it masterpieces such as this would've never come about without it. Fucking wretched LOVE!!!...............
On Tuesday, April 1, 2003, totaltrip (36) wrote:

oh my God...wow! There are few works that I can really really relate to and this is one of them...:)
A former member wrote: I'm with you Fish. Damn that's a good poem. It spoke to my depressed side with a soothing whisper. Amazing. :]
On Thursday, March 20, 2003, Jonas (720) wrote:

i read it again... in the privacy of my own office... i've got tears in my eyes... and though i remember a weight that will never leave my heart it is somehow lighter for being shared...
On Friday, March 21, 2003, Jonas (720) wrote:

i feel the urge to comment every time i read... damn... this is probably my all time favourite poem... god.
On Sunday, March 30, 2003, liquid_emotion (323) wrote:

I love you fish.... thats all.
On Wednesday, March 19, 2003, urbanhumility (1175) wrote:

at the crossroads,i see. pick that path that hurts the most, you will gain strong insight. i love you -your words make me stronger
On Wednesday, March 19, 2003, liquid_emotion (323) wrote:

touche' and I return your love:) (wait, not that i give it back..you know)
On Wednesday, March 19, 2003, Jonas (720) wrote:

i can't even describe to you how much these words mean to me... i alsmost cried, would've let myself if i wasn't at a reception desk. god, i want to find words to express how much this poem means to me, but i can't...
On Tuesday, March 18, 2003, diavolessa (208) wrote:

nice write! :) i liked it a lot! :)
On Tuesday, March 18, 2003, cre (411) wrote:

Very good write, I can feel it through and through.. somehow it makes me want to sigh. Good job.