the death of a dream
By yslehc
12:05 am - Tuesday now
talking to random people on the internet
starting to get tired - should lay down now
12:58 - eyes closed
been welcoming sleep for 30 minutes
without sleep i think too much
---think of nothingness
1:36 - bad thoughts are here
bad times - loneliness - divorce
cant stop thinking
cant stop to sleep
2:10 - sitting up
staring at shadows
fighting the urge to take drugs
-but so tired
2:32 - back on the computer
reading poems without really reading them
-too tired for things to sink in
2:49 - still reading
-not remembering a word
thinking nothing now but trying to understand
what im reading
3:19 - back in bed
eyes closed - thoughts are back
3:33 - cough medicine
the prescription kind with codein
3:52 - feeling weird
happy thoughts making me cry
4:00 - in bed once again
thoughts slowing down
4:09 - asleep
--silence
--peace
4:18 - dreams
happiness - love - life
life should be this way for everyone
5:00 - dreaming still
-knowing im asleep
------loving it
5:44 - feel awakening coming
-worst feeling ever
----knowing your perfect dream is about to end
5:55 - eyes open - watering
just experienced
the death of a dream
now im back in
my nightmare in reality
---------insomnia
Comments on "the death of a dream"
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A former member wrote:
I LIKE RHYMES, BUT THAT WAS A NYCE JORNEY FOR ME-PERSEVERANCE-
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A former member wrote:
..this gasped at me. I'm pretty sure I live this...actually, I know I do. Nicely executed.