Forever Under

It is days like this that I sit and think
I look upon the door, the open sky and see
Nothing. No brightened Lilly, nothing and nothing
But beyond I can see, the sky in a cry,
With redness so frilly, but only, only a sigh
I don’t want to just see, no, I want to hear the rain,
Taste the mist, smell the dew, feel the river
To be in that blue is to send away away the pain
A taste of sweetened breath, a smile offered by the giver
The giver, my love, gliding through the flowered plane
Rising, blossoming, a sprite of emotions curse
The curse to want: To love, and be loved is the verse
'Tis a want, a need, bringing forth from under...
That desire to see, and taste, and feel, hear, smell the wonder...
It’s like opening up the sun to relish in it's plunder…
It is days like this that I hope to look
And see upon the door my Lilly, the life so forsook
Of utter feeling, under purple passioned, reddish sky,
Which forever under I would die
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Forever under I would die...
Forever under...
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So enlighten me, just be with me,
Platonic or not, in heaven or hell, don’t you see
I am here, you are there, but you know I'm on my knee,
Drowning in this black, sticky sea
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Sigh,
Just a sigh,
~So melancholy comes the nigh
As under hell I wither...and die
Forever under hell I wither and die
Forever under...
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I look up and prickle, you angel in those wings
For you to fall or me to rise, such glory the thought brings,
But no, the horror, more sin unto myself, hell still sings,
For forever under I shall bear the stings
Some ask, what have you done?
I have taken away the love and so now
I shall not have love, I shall not plunder the sun
To blackened crypts I must scream and bow
Forever...away...you are away, no lovely ties
Of hands in hands, lips upon neck, but no more lies,
Of what I was, the shame upon shame under self blame,
The life upon life of incessant struggling, strife,
The pride from whence I died,
The refusal of heaven, of you as a diamond bride
I did not ask of that, but was given it upon the tide
Of the things I did, the idiocy I began to reside
And now here...forever under the stars, I fight and bide
Forever under the stars, far below the stars,
Forever under,
Forever under...