Unfortunate Recollection on a Star Burned Night

By BeautifulCalamity


So you stumble across deadened streets,
looking into windows-
begging for goodbyes & the ending kiss..
Weeping willows weep

Cause leaving that way would be so much prettier,
and who knows how beautiful
our pain is
. . .

Burns and cuts were once comfort
to rusted lips,
smoke tongues . rippled effect
..the words I choked out could be so fucking amazing,
but soaked in blood & the sickest rhyme

Did every hit make you certain of a future?
A sooner-or-later that was promised from the beginning..
Circles and tongues on fingers,
no need for rings

[do you remember?]

We deserved our hearts,
we could have had our hearts...

So listen while I dot plainly along the lines,
connections that should have spoken to you then-
will meet you tonight..
Oh, how our lies played games with time,
too sure to give a fuck now.

My dream tells me that I cried smothered drunk the other night..
holding your marijuana stenched letter,
I didn't take the time to read it,
I only allowed my head to spin for awhile.

Soon, it was all gone

I fell and bruised my 'perfect' hips, the perfect lust..
and that feeling was removed,
all left purity

Placed into another boy's hands,
another boy with another heart

[let me leave my past, allow this line my last]

We're perfect now, and they are no one..
when words meant nothing
I allowed my faith stolen
..myself to a thief

give me my speech,
myself torn apart
.. I want it all back,
I was never anything when she was always there..

October- I knew his hands, yes..
soon after you knew her,
and ours was ours no longer.
January- fucking heartbreak,
and St.Valentine was worse..

I saw him cry

March- you came back,
open.mind
open.legs
open.heart
fucking rip me apart


Oh, take me away-
my exits,
they
save
me
now

..

I remember all the things you said,
and let the tears roll-
Here I am,
a statue of the 'beautiful ugly'

Do you like what you see?
Naked flashes of me
Oh, never perfect
We were never perfect

I was fucked up, trying to speak-
wishing that poetry would explode straight out of my
mouth..
and maybe I wouldn't taste the words or feel
the pain..
I knew not pain..

I kissed the ugly tiles
and painted smeared mascara portraits of
you & I

all that was nothing,
all that will never be..

So say goodbye, allow the plastic eyes to cry
I am no one perfect, but without you I am beautiful..


Let me leave my past,
allow this line my last

. . . ..


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Copyright 2005 BeautifulCalamity
Published on Monday, May 30, 2005.     Filed under: "Reflective" and "Poetry"
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  • Magdalena On Sunday, November 27, 2016, Magdalena (792)By person wrote:

    I've been reading through your work and it is stunning. I know you are a ghost rider and may not see this comment, but maybe others will read you too if I leave this comment.... this line has such an impact... "I am no one perfect, but without you I am beautiful"

  • A former member wrote: Speechless.... ( where was I when I was looking for great poetry here )? ~Lost~

  • xserratedsoulx On Monday, December 5, 2005, xserratedsoulx (214)By person wrote:

    oh God...my heart, it hurts...i hope you don't mind...but i'm going to print this out and tape it into my notebook, along with my own dark throughts, because it is the same. ~lauren~

  • blue On Saturday, June 11, 2005, blue (1457)By person wrote:

    Oh heavens above LeaghAnn!! You so easily turn my world with your perfect verse! God, I've missed your presence.. so truly! Shine on! ~b

  • Grey Lies On Saturday, June 4, 2005, Grey Lies (192)By person wrote:

    deep....like your windpipe has been crushed!!.. you inspire me....

  • A former member wrote: You have such a care-free,expressive way of describing events and emotions and feelings,it's just so comforting and really moving.This one was wonderful.

  • K_Love On Tuesday, May 31, 2005, K_Love (529)By person wrote:

    Heartwrenching and heartfelt. I need to go think. I'm floored right now and I should be saying more but all that comes to mind is this was a masterpiece & I loved it. Glad to see your writings again. :)

  • Six-Out On Monday, May 30, 2005, Six-Out (1483)By person wrote:

    You're still far to beautiful for any of the shit you allow yourself to be in.

  • A former member wrote: sweet jesus. i really didn't want this poem to ever end. i can say quite honostly, a perfect person you may not be, but you sure can write perfect poetry. i loved this to all extents. beautiful job. ....-samone

  • A former member wrote: I'll just stand here in admiration of this work... don't want to add my ugly words here..... this is just.... encompasing

  • A former member wrote: So painful & such raw emotion ~ a heartfelt write with a beautiful essence and . . you are absolutely wonderful at expressing distress . . truth and heart-wrenching sincerity. I'm glad you've posted again, my love. x

  • BleedSilver On Monday, May 30, 2005, BleedSilver (300)By person wrote:

    christ. I can't believe this. This is too beautifully tragic to even describe. I am in awe, you are a wonderful writer.


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