Untitled Two

2 Mar 2005
35000 ft.

Somewhere Over the North Atlantic OceanM.

Home. It Doesn't feel....real. How Can It?
I Have lived a very different life for
15 months. How will I act?......One thing only comes
to mind. Different. Adreneline has kept me alive
for a full year. How can I go from an environment where
Death, Injury, and Violence are commen to the relaxed
atmosphere of....home?

I cannot express enough on how I feel. To see friends,
family, my beloved Fiancee, who has stood by my side
throughout this entire ordeal. To breath the life
of freedom. The Jouous occasion that I have
contemplated for many moons, Overwhelming perhaps,
but Welcome.

I worry. How will things go? Change is what I fear the
most. People are different. Places. Ideas. change.....can be
scary. A flash. Relationships? Intimate contact a negative for
so long. Will I know how to comfort and encourage? ... Don't Know.
Time will tell. One thing I know doesn't change....
Love. It won't ever diminish. But trust and strength are
much harder to restore and nurture.

Again, a Thought. Welcome home they say. But its like I never left
....Or Is it? It just feels so weird, so ....normal. I am so happy
.... for the snow on the ground, Good american beef, everything.
But I am home now. I Can't believe it, But I am. And almost nothing
else has felt this good.