Nightmare

I whispered it quietly into your ear, like a gentle breeze,
Reluctant to persist, I held your hand and dropped to my knees.
Can you hear the mind screaming, lost in despair?
As it lives life in an eternal, lonely nightmare?
Rejecting the lessons that time had painfully taught,
I traveled far away to find redemption, or so I had thought.

How unsightly I must seem when I meet your gentle gaze,
But never could I look away from that which had set emotions ablaze.
Lost in uncertainty, I locked myself in a dark room,
And this rose which fed off of the darkness, began to bloom.
I fed it my ever-lasting loneliness and tormented memoirs,
Yet somehow I cast the past away and focused on being only yours.

My, how the skies seemed to howl and cry during the moonlit night,
Yet I felt even more alone as I bathed in the illuminating beams of light.
I longed for you to join me on this beautiful night of nocturnal sorrow,
No longer could I wait for your comforting embrace and the feelings of tomorrow.
Darkness was all around, but I stood in the faint ray of the moon,
Waiting and waiting for you, and soon could never become too soon.

Feeling the darkness wrap its soothing but chilling fingers around my heart,
I clung to the image of you as the dreams and hopes of the dead tore mine apart.
We lost ourselves in the confines of our own torment and pain,
But the strength of my memories of us significantly began to wane.
Lost, but still breathing, I dragged my bloody spirit before you,
I cannot imagine how dismal I must have seemed as I lay in your view

You succumbed to feeling pity as you stared at my broken and fragile physique,
Warmth covered me as you held my body which had been torn apart and left weak.
Never before had such a thing coursed through my entire, miserable soul,
For a split moment in this life, I thought I had experienced what it was to be whole.
And as we lay there, embracing each other warmly and never letting each other go,
Our beautiful black scenery vanished and I was surrounded by the cold, bitter, white snow.

My body was frozen and my eyes were sealed as I slept and dreamed,
None of these sweet memories were real, but beautiful illusions only, it seemed.
I had been walking through the frozen tundra of this life for so very long,
Suddenly giving up and accepting realization of defeat, didn't seem at all wrong.
You were my most beautiful illusion and oh how I longed for your embrace,
Nothing could compare to the feelings that you inspired when I looked at your face.

Nothing could have been more beautiful and right… than embracing my own death.
A prisoner to my own loneliness and the only thing left to greet me in the end, was my own demise