intentionalism

By capt_funguy

if not holier than smoke , certainly
holier than thou ...

i'm so up ...

a corner eye capture of myself ..
whizzing by - metallic green

hurriedly determined ... highest
frequency dart proving air's density

proving randomness' lure


perked ears aimed intensely toward the center
of a rutkus ...

and the rutkus grows - forces - rumbles ...

closer - center expanding

silence so sudden as the buzzing , whizzing
affirmation stops .....

i can't listen hard enough -

lost connection




i sit still ...

stillest

chewing nothing at a time ..

i hear the faultering heartbeat
in my neck ..
and the ugliest compacted words from a
mouth so restricted
still .... with intentional breath placed
slightest conspicuous

strange fear


i remove the greens and reds and blacks
from my plate ..
this isn't at all excessive ...

this could be my last meal ..

could be the only thing that i care to
remember from this point on

it's the only approach that makes sense

intentional everything

no thoughtless mistakes before i'm blank-
no careless last breaths-
no pushcheek pastry cherry mulm
falling out of my face when my head's lifted
by a waft breeze aft it's removed from my
neck that wasn't even tensed ...
wasn't thinking about how important that was to
the whole thing .....
when someone , somewhere , somehow tragic - falls from
what they expected of themselves as
children without thought of tomorrow
while making great chase towards dragonflies , and
capturing them only to pull wings , and legs , and
thorax apart looking for a dangerous mouth that wasn't there


i'll be extinguished by the empuzzled , yet intentional
discovery monster choking out what he believes to
be paradoxical...
but the paradox wasn't there either

the only way to combat blind stupidity is
intentionalism practices that let you know when
questions that need no answers ... arise

but the fucker won't ever even know his
dream is dead .... won't ever know that when the
creature came apart in his hands -
the damage was irreperable , and he became creaturish

when he wiped his hands clean of dragonfly , his hands
were left stained , the dirty mits of ugly
unintentional avenues ...
the dirt under the nails ... the angelical fleshfabric -
scratched away , turned to gritty bloodstained
blackened grime
once beatiful , now death

tastes of sin - smells of sick


i am very aware of him ... and knowing he exists , is
knowing there's a question in his diverted existence
that will be the death of me

he doesn't ask with words


and can't patiently wait for answers

he rips limbs from thorax , head from neck ...

and finds nothing


he just leaves eventually , flustered again ,
with your grit under his nails ...
disturbing the quiet that he made ...


convinced that things are hidden too
effectively ...

not accepting that some things mean no harm

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Copyright 2004 capt_funguy
Published on Friday, September 17, 2004.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • lovechild On Sunday, February 8, 2009, lovechild (43)By person wrote:

    i feel my mortality and the futility of existing more strongly than ever thanks to this piece of work you stabbed me with thank you!

  • carlosjackal On Monday, December 31, 2007, carlosjackal (3011)By person wrote:

    There's a delicate reflective quality to this piece that I really, really like..and I love the dragonfly metaphor..how the destruction reveals no secrets, no magic..the mind does not fly, only denies, too much forced effort, too much try. You are one beautiful dragon fly writer, you've stumbled upon the secret and grinning all the way..Sweet, my Yank brother :) P.S. I'm really hoping you make it to England next Summer..have a few pints and then jump on a couple of dragonflies and head towards the burning of the midnight lamp.

  • TheBardOfBlasphemy On Monday, July 18, 2005, TheBardOfBlasphemy (358)By person wrote:

    This is confounding. Impressive but also frustrating. I can really appreciate how far you stretched your senses to bring this one back to us. Good stuff

  • Necromancer On Saturday, November 27, 2004, Necromancer (71)By person wrote:

    once again i started to read a poem thinking one thing then half way into it i am faced with what it really is about. the wording is great and it teaches a lesson. your skill is always great capt. -justin

  • TropicalSnowstorm On Friday, November 19, 2004, TropicalSnowstorm (1703)By person wrote:

    "children without thought of tomorrow while making great chase towards dragonflies , and capturing them only to pull wings , and legs , and thorax apart looking for a dangerous mouth that wasn't there" - brilliant! I love your style. Ciao, T/S Scholar

  • Dancing_Monkey On Friday, October 22, 2004, Dancing_Monkey (1246)By person wrote:

    A little note that can be deleted ..I get unline the third . and then il return to this.

  • birdwell On Friday, October 8, 2004, birdwell (140)By person wrote:

    i'm astounded, and adrift in thought again... your still the man :) ~db~

  • sixsixnine On Wednesday, September 29, 2004, sixsixnine (477)By person wrote:

    oh shit! damn this just left me in pieces! love this.. i think i'll sing it this time.. *669*

  • Revolting Theatre On Wednesday, September 29, 2004, Revolting Theatre (31)By person wrote:

    Capt...that made me feel like a complete fraud of a poet. That was brilliant. -Josh

  • Solace On Tuesday, September 21, 2004, Solace (1069)By person wrote:

    Sometimes it takes sitting still and just listening to hear the hypocrisy, to hear the screaming...Too much pixellated death, desensitization to horror, when a mother and a child means nothing more than their affiliation...

  • Solace On Tuesday, September 21, 2004, Solace (1069)By person wrote:

    Faith bombs drop filled with prayers on shanty towns...Dragonflies become dragons when provoked...Blame passes around like a joint, but one of us isn't smoking anything but the wisp from a gun barrel...

  • Solace On Tuesday, September 21, 2004, Solace (1069)By person wrote:

    Everything is a potential threat man, don't your read the papers? The dragonfly was going nuclear on us, could see it in its eyes...Excuses, excuses, excuses...Curiosity killed the cat and the cats family will NEVER forgive...

  • Solace On Tuesday, September 21, 2004, Solace (1069)By person wrote:

    "He doesn't ask with words / and can't patiently wait for answers" Your subtle liek a knife in the back, wham bam thank you mam, no fucking around with you, no sir, i like my meat rare and without gravy...

  • Solace On Tuesday, September 21, 2004, Solace (1069)By person wrote:

    You are the Blake of our age, the metaphorical misanthrope...Every literature class should get to read this, every modern man should fill his mind with these concepts...

  • A former member wrote: Scheiße. You're brilliant and beautiful.

  • purr_verse On Friday, September 17, 2004, purr_verse (1059)By person wrote:

    completely.damn.excellent. too many brilliant lines within for me to single out any particular one... phenomenal write that i could (and suspect will) immerse in repeatedly and find more every time. *click*

  • Zhee On Friday, September 17, 2004, Zhee (529)By person wrote:

    this left me absolutely stunned! thanks!amazing work!

  • A former member wrote: godamn man, a pradox of deep random equations running like an industrial sewing machine over the seam of my brain, made me twist and bend to compensate...great stuff.

  • Anth On Friday, September 17, 2004, Anth (1133)By person wrote:

    this is just perfect,in everything it conveys in yoru unmistakeable style,the concepts precise like robotic sewing,and many deep and aweing parts especially

  • Anth On Friday, September 17, 2004, Anth (1133)By person wrote:

    around the middle verses that just removed the eyes out of my head,like faith,the wording too cool as ever

  • girlafraid On Friday, September 17, 2004, girlafraid (480)By person wrote:

    this makes me think of so many parallels, all the beings that destroy others for no reason...this is really what we have to fear...whoever would protect the dragonflies in this metaphor...thats what i strive to be...what would it be?

  • girlafraid On Friday, September 17, 2004, girlafraid (480)By person wrote:

    i am a rabid dog...i need to learn kung fu...

  • boundandfallen On Friday, September 17, 2004, boundandfallen (32)By person wrote:

    this reminds me of my thought process when i have a head cold. brings me back.

  • A former member wrote: damn

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