No Lost Love

Am I to remain forever
Friend to everyone
And lover to no one
By whose design
Was this cast
Or has all
Of my chances past
One died cold and alone
And the other
I walked away from
Disturbing visions
I want them to leave
Instead they keep
Haunting me
Of a red car
Speeding, driver drunk
Slams head on
Small black convertible
Kills the one I love
Devina, my life, my love