the negotiation of my heartbeats

By KittyStryker

i'm not allowed to fall in love with you.

we've discussed this before, and the conclusion has been
that lust is acceptable terms
and that love carries too many old battle scars
to be worth the struggle and the ache.

but.

sadly hearts do not understand words like "no"
and "unreasonable"- hearts stare at these words
with head cocked to one side quizzically

the words they know are "yes", "now",
and "forever"... words i had sworn to rip out of my dictionary.

i'm not allowed to fall in love with you.
so please excuse me if i trip sometimes
over the shoelaces of desire and wishing.

i should be all right
as long as i don't skin my dreams
on the cold hard concrete of this reality.

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Published on Friday, July 30, 2004. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "the negotiation of my heartbeats"

A former member wrote: Forbidden fruit carries consequences, been there done that. Sigh...
On Monday, October 3, 2011, Hands_Around_My_Throat (67) wrote:

This was beautiful. The metaphor was simple and sweet, with nostalgia toward times that are long passed. "The cold hard concrete of reality" I thought it was bitterly sweet.
A former member wrote: You've put the war between myself and my heart into words, good write. ~~Funky Punk~~
On Monday, August 16, 2004, OLd SouL (732) wrote:

the ending verse is spectacular. I found this to be quite intriguing since I've never successfully negotiated with my heart. It does whatever the hell it wants.. I have no say so. Though I like it that way.
On Monday, August 16, 2004, OLd SouL (732) wrote:

Break my heart a million times as long I continue to love. :::OLd
On Monday, August 16, 2004, sixsixnine (477) wrote:

this is ATOMIC! love its honest wicked vibe! extreamly powerful poetry.. love it! ~669~
On Monday, August 16, 2004, KittyStryker (711) wrote:

is it bad that this poem could equally be used for my ex as for my current? is there a trend?...
On Thursday, August 5, 2004, TropicalSnowstorm (1703) wrote:

Lovely word use, etc...but the subject matter fills me with sadness somehow. Much of the "reality" we live in can actually be of our own creation. Anyway, lovely flow and your personality shines through, as always. Ciao, T/S
On Saturday, July 31, 2004, Lynaes (859) wrote:

This is incredible.. I've never read anything so true, sad and real.. I'm stunned, amazing work. I love this. *clicks favs*
On Friday, July 30, 2004, Six-Out (1435) wrote:

I...can't comment on this right now... but I will when I can pull myself back together.
On Friday, July 30, 2004, Mademoiselle_Minx (108) wrote:

*sigh* My relationship ended today...the kind where I wasnt allowed to fall in love with him.Only prob was I was in love with him.I think he knew it...and I tripped over our agreement.This hurts because its all too real for me.
On Friday, July 30, 2004, Dolly_Fatale (29) wrote:

i especially love the excuse me part. this is, like all else you've written, beautiful
On Friday, July 30, 2004, KittyStryker (711) wrote:

i'd put it onto my tribe... but i don't want Isaac seeing it... it's not something i talk about with him really ::blush::
On Wednesday, August 4, 2004, Dolly_Fatale (29) wrote:

you shouldn't be embarassed with him about how you really feel, dear
On Friday, July 30, 2004, aXe FactoR (335) wrote:

wow, a raw & painful feeling, put across with such neat and impressive poetry prowess as always. i like the kinda raw sincere feelings conjured through ya works, & this piece is no less different. awesome. -MeL-
On Friday, July 30, 2004, girlafraid (480) wrote:

i love the last line...and the subtle longing throughout...
On Friday, July 30, 2004, glasshouse (548) wrote:

Oh wow. This was so honest and so emotional. My heart has uttered these words so many times, but never so elegantly. I love this piece though it hurts. -Glass